I’m In…Forever

September 29 2011, 11:59 am | Mary Lyons

 

 

       Well so I’m aware that I have this reputation for being a transparent person.  And that just makes it really stinky to have to admit that I’ve been facing hard in-the-moment vulnerability in writing this blog post and I’ve been trying to think of every way to get out of it. God is ironic and so very crafty.

       Yep..because only He could have known that the very day I needed to write a post teaching about the wonders of covenant friendship my two covenant friends and I would be right in the middle of facing the most challenging and painful season our friendship has ever known in 11 years of being together.  

       And only God could have known how that would push all my buttons in needing to seem to have it together and know what I’m talking about. Mm Hmm, when the truth is that I don’t and that I desperately need Him and that I know nothing without Him. I need Him for my friendship and I need Him for this post and I’m choosing to openly confess that here.

       So, instead of teaching on how to establish and make a covenant friendship work my friends and I get to be an example why it’s very hard to do this. We’re in a season of ripping, shredding change for each of us. Damage has been done and who we were together is being questioned and who we will be is completely unseen as yet. And so, for now, we live in the tension of grief for what was and the hopeful longing for more.

       If I have zero capacity, in the midst of my tears today, to communicate the finer points of forming covenant in friendship I do think I can whisper one word. Forever. I’m in it and it’s worth it, they are worth it. Because of the promise we made and because our God is faithful to rescue and mighty to save there will be a better place and we will see another decade of life and love, intimacy and fun. 

       

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