Angry Me

November 02 2011, 12:37 pm | Mary Lyons

So one night during the five week prayer revival  at The Summit, Bill asked people who deal with anger to stand up to receive prayer. I stood up and was immediately surrounded by ten people who, every single one, began their prayer something like this..”Well, I just really can’t believe Mary Lyons is standing up right now..”

I giggled on the inside and wept on the inside too.

 

Yes, it’s true.

I learned to survive an angry childhood household by using my own anger as a weapon and a tool. God has, graciously and with unimaginable tenderness, been revealing to me that on rare occasions I still use my anger as a weapon.  He has mercifully shown me that it has hurt people I love dearly. While I’m grateful only a few people in my life have seen what I can become when I’m angry, I’m desperate to be free and whole. And I’m desperate to share this so others who struggle may desire it with me.

 

Just this week I’ve come to understand that I have been in bondage to anger and that I’ve allowed the enemy to use my words and emotion to his advantage.  Praying with trusted friends and my husband I’ve been renouncing lies and resisting Satan. I’m asking God to come and heal the hurting places in me that hated being a victim of my family’s anger and swore to never go there again. And I’m moving into a new place in my life where manipulating through anger is no longer allowed, no longer acceptable.

 

I feel the winds of redemption blowing and I’m ready to be a new me....again.

 

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